untethered
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Considering how we live in a world that benefits from our confusion and fear. Lately, I have been feeling Untethered. It is impossible to not be affected by the World. Lately I have been struggling to feel safe. It has been validating and retraumatizing to realize just how gaslit I had been by my “nice” adoptive family. Just how deeply patriarchal they are even though they appear more progressive than they really are. To be able to deepen my understanding of how impactful gaslighting, manipulation and other forms of emotional abuse disconnects people from their Gut Instincts; from their Intuition. I feel as though I am in the Fog of Grief. I am grieving for the family that I never had. My “nice” adoptive family, far more sinister than not. Which makes me even more grateful they no longer have access to me. They are users and abusers who convince themselves that they are the perpetual Victim; not caring to understand how they contribute to the relationship. I never want to be like that.
So many current systems rely on our confusion and fear and desperation.
Lately, I have been feeling the pull to Harden, to close my Heart. Feeling all used up. Nothing left.
Which tells me that I need to take some reflection time. Become still. Recalibrate.
Since my Spiritual Awaken began in 2019, I have come to understand myself on a deeper level that I had no idea was possible. I have had multiple mediumship experiences. I can see through people’s masks far more easily. My Intuition continues to Strengthen.
I know I can never go back. I know I can’t undo what has been done. And right now I am in a spot where I feel tired and wary and afraid. I also know the way out of this confusing limbo spot is to keep learning, meditating, pushing myself beyond my perceived limitations.
I look at the World, the Injustice; those who get Believed and who get Betrayed. And even though there has been so much pain, I am grateful for my ability to ask questions. To question the status quo. Because the current systems need to change.
I want to be a part of that change. I want to be a Good Witch. To help solve the World’s problems, to be a part of the solution. To be a part of the Evolution of Human Consciousness.
That means it is time to prioritize Silence, Reflection and Learning. To go Inward, for that is where my Answers are.
May Peace Be With You.
Much Love.
Some Music That Inspired Some Of My Thoughts:
Memoirs of the Melancholy…..BLESSED
Rytual…..Jutro, Linda
Phantom March…..PhantomFlow
