npc mode

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We all live in a culture where gaslighting and exploitation are normalized ways of interacting with other people. That is why it can be so difficult to spot, these become automatic responses. We have been rewarded to exert power over others and/or to submit depending on the circumstances. This is a Dehumanizing Process. 

In the time I have worked in addiction counseling, I have noticed some interesting themes. 

The ways boys and men are expected and conditioned to appear unfazed and stoic by life, boggles my fucking mind. When it comes to emotions, most men are allowed to express 3 emotions which are Anger, Lust and Greed. This is a Disability. Humans are so complex by nature and to deny anyone full access to their Emotions is to cut out an important part of being human. Emotions are information. Emotions help to build the foundation for which to build Self-Trust and Intuition. When people cannot fully access ALL of their emotions they will experience Confusion which will lead to soaking in a Fearful Headspace. The more Fear we experience, we will get stuck in cycles of thinking and behaviors that keep us stuck in situations we don’t really want to be in. 

Consider Interoception which is Internal Body Awareness that allows people to have an Intuitive map of Emotional States that makes Emotions FEEL Embodied rather than Purely Intellectual. 

We are built to FEEL our Emotions. When we lose this ability, we lose access to our gut feelings (aka Intuition). When we cannot tap into our Intuition we will get caught up in cycles of Exploitation and Abuse. 

While it appears that girls and women are granted more freedom in Emotional Expression, this is an Illusion. It is expected for women to play nice and to suppress Emotions like Rage and other intense Feeling States. The Anger for most women goes Inward, like a Virus. In this way women are not granted full access to their Emotions and they too, get a Vital survival skill cut out from them. This is why a lot of women are really fucking mean. Whatever we attempt to Suppress within ourselves, it will leak out in Distorted ways. So while it appears women have more Freedom for Emotional Expression; this is not True. Many girls and women live with the expectation to express Empathy because of the stereotypes that women are naturally more nurturing than men. But since women are denied full access to their Emotions too, what a lot of women get REALLY good at is Fake Empathy. They get really good at expressing their “concern” when it’s really a Tool of Manipulation. 

Of course women do this. They learn to do this to survive in a culture that wants to make them as Small and Powerless as possible. This is an attempt to have some kind of Power in their life. This is an attempt at Survival. 

The term NPC which stands for Non-Player Character. I really like the following definition of this term by Google, “In spiritual contexts, ‘NPC’ refers to a person perceived as lacking consciousness, depth, and independent thought, similar to a video game non-player character. This ‘NPC spiritual meaning’ describes individuals who are seen as unreflective, robotic, and merely following predetermined scripts or societal norms, often without engaging in self-awareness, spiritual awakening, or personal growth. The term is also sometimes used to describe a person who is spiritually ‘asleep’ or unable to perceive higher consciousness, or a soul that has chosen a less active state of consciousness for a specific life purpose.”

Most of us are conditioned to be NPC’s. When we begin to ask questions and allow ourselves to follow our Curiosity, this behavior will help us to disentangle from the Mainstream Cultural Matrix.  

If you are reading this, you are being Initiated. You are exactly where you are meant to be, keep asking questions, keep learning. Keep Going!!! Much Love. 

Music: 

i always kinda knew you’d be the death of me…..Artemas

Cigarette Stub…..Asal

Darkness Saves…..ghostbells