astrology and rape
I consider myself a student of Astrology. I have recently learned about the asteroid Makemake. It just so happens that my Makemake is in my 8th house of Leo conjunct my Venus. The bottom line of this particular placement is that it gives me more energy to manifest through emotional and energetic bonds. Learning about this has helped me to understand more about how I accidentally helped you and your wife to manifest a child. Even though I did not consent to helping to create another human life.
Are you evil? Sometimes it feels like you are evil.
The whole situation of you not fully understanding your personal power and your identity of victim even though in the current patriarchal structure you have way more societal power and influence than I do; the dichotomy of you being a physically beautiful person on the outside and absolutely hideous on the inside feels very Shakespearean to me and/or greek tragedy. There’s been a lot of Rape.
Speaking of Rape. Have you heard about that teenaged boy from Florida who raped and murdered his step-sister while on a cruise? Her name was Anna Kepner. I blame the parents. The parents are oblivious to how our culture conditions boys and men to think of girls and women as prey. As things to do things to. The parents are a part of the problem. They have no perspective or wisdom to bestow upon their children because they themselves are blinded by the cultural conditioning. They were incapable of having uncomfortable conversations with their children about harsh realities of the very specific and narrow conditioning on what is allowed for men and women. That boy is only 16 years old and already a dangerous and psychopathic monster. His lack of empathy for another human being is not rare; it is the expectation. His lack of empathy is the result of not being able to express and feel his emotions. His lack of empathy is tied to a lack of appropriate, healthy physical touch. His lack of empathy stems from being told over and over and over again to, “Not be a fucking Pussy”. His lack of empathy stems from not being allowed to cry or show vulnerability. Again, his violence is not an exception; it is the rule. The parents expected the step-siblings to share a room. I suppose to save money. I imagine the father may feel bad about the rape and murder of his child but cannot fully access the depth of loss. I also imagine Anna’s father probably doesn’t really care all that much. Not really. I imagine he is incapable of feeling deeply. The atrophy of feeling. Another father who was a liability to his child.
She fought back. She didn’t want him. And his tiny, little ego could not handle that. He not only believed himself entitled to her body but also to her life.
So many families struggle with secrets. Again, this is not the exception; it is the rule. And when no one is willing to acknowledge those secrets and change; the violent behaviors get passed from one generation to the next a lot like a virus. Very infectious.
Are you evil? Sometimes it feels like you are evil.
I know for years we were told directly and indirectly that things like rape and incest only happens to poor people. By this time, I am sure you are clued into the reality that was another fucking lie.
I think it is really sad that you peaked in your 20’s. Which is the standard for military men. 99.99% of all military men peak in their 20’s. That is also by design.
Are you evil? Sometimes it feels like you are evil.
Creep…..Radiohead
prey…..Aestrea
Free Your Mind…..Honey Gentry
Lonely Day…..System Of A Down
